31 July 2011 8-4pm

While I am at work today, I heard a lot of juicy gossips. I always thought both new managers are getting along, but today I see the truth. Everyone is not having nice impression of one of them especially after what happened today. She was supposed to come to work at 12pm as scheduled but she came late because she was tired. I am tired as well after a night going out =X
I mean you should be taking off or coming late because of such reason. If you are tired and that led to having a headache or giddiness, it is accepted if you said you want to be excused. However, she didn't seem sick or ill when she came in. She said she would come at 2.30pm instead but she came at 2.45pm. The bread, cookies, vegetables, meat and washing up had almost all been done by poor us! At least she still feels smth is wrong with the rest of us and offered to cut the onions. I don't know if I can still work under such working environment. If the tension grows stronger, I think I might quit this job even though others treat me well.

31 July 4pm

It's very sweet for dada to come over to BPP to find me to dine subway bread with me and accompany me for a while before he was going to book in for camp in the late evening. We went shopping for snacks so he could get some bites after his PT everyday. It's really a pleasant day when he is there to spend time with me. I always hope time passes slowly when we are together. He sent me home after we had finished shopping with his snacks as it was time for him to go home and pack his bag.

31 July 6pm

Took a nice long bath after one whole morning of perspiration! Went down to pray as today is the first day of the Seven Month in lunar calendar. After which my parents sent me to cck for me to take bus to give tuition and sent my brother to pasir ris :)

31 July 9.30pm

I gave dada a call and had a short conversation with him. We were already planning his next book out programmes. LOL! Like going to the Popeye's, JusAsia to eat and so on. It's kinds like what we are going to do everytime he books in. LOL!
He said tml's training is going to be tougher and muscles might feel sore after the strength training exercise. I hope he is okays tml! Must take care ah!
And I am freaking happy because his bunk mates were amazed by my work of art! haha the poster of photos I made for him! I am so damn high right now :) Woohoo! YAY!

To dada:

Thanks for making time out for ur busy gf :) And no more sorry unnecessarily! Love you always!

30 July 8.30am

I was late for my 9am tuition! But that wasn't the point! I was hitting the roof of my student's house. I can't stand teaching student who doesn't listen. I explained and she was fidgeting around with the pencil, eraser, water bottle, etc. I really had no more ideas how to calm her down. I was so mad that I scolded till she cried. I thought she would listen after the scolding but she was back to the same old her once I started with the work. OMG! Someone save me please :(

30 July 11.15am

Finally I ended the dreadful tuition and managed to rush for the bus to go BPP. I went to print more photos for dada to bring in to camp to paste on his cabinet and decided to go buy "Gong Cha" for him. Bought Earl Grey Milk Tea with White Pearl Jelly and Milk Tea with Grass Jelly. I thought getting the EGMT for him try since he never tasted it before, but he still prefers the MTGJ. Lucky I bought 2 flavours. Went to his house to have lunch and helped him to fold his no. 4 because I couldn't send him off tml. It's a very sad thing. But something happened! Something good happened! My last tuition of the day was postponed because the student couldn't make it. And I could pei him for the night :) He then sent me off to my next destination - another student's house.

30 July 5.30pm

I went lot 1 to find dada to have dinner together and most importantly was to watch "Captain America"! We missed it yesterday but not today :) That's why it's a good thing my last tuition was canceled. We had our dinner at our favourite place at lot 1 "Kobayashi Hangul".

The show is as good as Harry Potter! I love the shield! Powerful shield! I wished to have that shield! I want to have that shield!

To dada:

I really enjoyed the time we spent together every week and I wished I could stay with you longer. I don't wish to depart but we have to. I am looking forward to our next meeting. Will always be happy spending my time with you :) But I am sad that I couldn't go shopping with you for your after PT snacks. I wished I had more time today. I know I should be satisfied because I get to catch a movie with you today and not just having dinner together only. I should be more "zhi zu". But everything that is to do with you, I would want more! More time to be with you!

I know I am super busy and can't make time for you. You still have to come and find me and not I go over. I am very sorry. I am not good enough yet. Please wait for a while more. After Os I am sure to be more free.

Dada is still not free to reply my sms and tell me what time is he booking out. Hopefully he is packing now :) So bored at home till I became very zhi lian. Keep taking photos.

29 July 7pm

Dada FINALLY booked out! And lucky I already started cooking.

29 July 8pm

I reached dada house and he ate my spaghetti and harshbrown with joy :) He was so happy and had his smile on his face throughout the dinner. Later on, I showed him the photo project I made for him. He was so touched and I am glad that I didn't disappoint him this time round although he told me he wasn't disappointed with me initially and I was thinking too much on my own. Anw, we couldn't catch Captain America like what we had planned to do so because all the cinema theatres near by were almost packed / full house for all timing. So I stayed at his house and pei him chit chat till its time for he to send me home. Before that, we went plaza to snack at Mcdonalds :) Had a great night dada. Thanks :)

做爱，不是一种游戏.. ?

Once you read it you will know the answer...Very true...

28 July 11.30am

OMG! I just woke up and realised dada did send me a text saying that he is having his free time at around 10.55am but I am still sleeping. Argh! Will am I such a pig. Last few days I already wake up by that time and had my breakfast. Hais. Maybe cos it rained just now? And I feel like sleeping cos there's not sun rays to wake me up. Regretted...

28 July 12.30pm

Dada is free again but can't call him, only can text him :) But we do remind each other of the happy moments we spent tgt through sms-ing. But 45mins later he had to go. He had some lesson called "drown proofing". I don't know what is that. Will ask him at night :) And I felt happy for him that he passed his test! He swam 1 lap with coverall and 5mins trapping water. Used his coverall to make a float and jumped from a 3m tower. He is indeed very strong and determine in things he wants to do. He is smart and has the ability to learn things very fast.

28 July 3.30pm

I went to student's house but he is not at home. I waited for his reply and for him to get home. It's 4.30pm then. I gave him an hour of tuition and went to fajar to eat my dinner. I was damn hungry then, maybe cause I ate biscuits and drank milo only. I ordered fishball noodle and it's worth what it cost. The noodle given is worthed $3. Very big bowl. I then dabao for my parents to eat and went to shop & save and gotten harshbrown for dada. He said he wants mashed potato when he books out, but I don't know how to do the gravy so I bought harshbrown as replacement :) Hope he wants it.

28 July 8.23pm

AH! Dada got punished today. Cannot call me :(

27 July 9pm

I called dada in the evening already. He had some free time around 5+pm. It's very sweet of him to chit chat with me whenever he is free. When i am typing this, he just nice called again :) so happy.

I asked him to call me the last because I want to wish him good night and let him sleep tight and have sweet dreams. But he said that the moment he is free, he just feels like contacting me first. It's so sweet and I am so elated that he thinks that way. He also said I shouldn't be to greedy to be the first and the last. Haha. I shall not be greedy then :) I will wait for him this weekend. I seriously wanna see him and show him the masterpiece I did ytd!

27 July 9.18pm

Will call him later again before his night out. Now he is having a bath while my mom uses the phone first :)

I just finished the project dada assigned to me.

Hopes he would like it. This is also considered as one of the birthday present because his birthday is next week :) The day after National Day. This is the only present he can bring to camp and look at it whenever he misses me. Oh, I also bought Taiwan Mee Sua to cook for him next week :) Must treat his stomach good so that he will stay with me. LOL.

To dada:

We had a short conversation around 10pm but it's okay. I know you are tired after these few days of intense training. Must take care of yourself. It is okay to be greedy too. You can always ask me to make u more food because that's the least I can do for you right now. I can only prepare food for you to eat when you book out. And hope you book out every friday, so i can spend my friday night with you. I will work hard on my spaghetti now and hopes that it taste okay since the sauce is pre-made :X

26 July 10am

I woke up in the morning to matriculate for NTU so I could get my timetable. I had a hard time processing it, but in the end I got it! But the unfortunate thing is I am not in the same semester as Charmaine or Zhining. Now left with Elle, Huiyi and Zhihui not yet confirmed their timetable with me. Hopefully I am at least in the same sem as them. Please let me be in the same sem as them. Then we can study together and ask each other if we have doubts.

26 July 12pm

Going to take a bath and head down to plaza to settle the things that I should have done yesterday! For dada's sake, I am going to finish everything today :)

26 July 5.00pm

I found Zhihui a buddy to go school together! They have the same time slot! That person is Elle! LOL! I do hope I have a buddy soon too. But glad that they are in the same sem as me :) Now I am still waiting for the photos to be ready because it needs 4 hours to processed. I hope I will do a good job later and hopes dada will like it.

25 July 9.30am

Just woke up not long ago. Should I go swimming? The weather looks very hot. Hais, no partner to go swim, very boring. No motivation :(

25 July 6.30pm

Should I go to plaza and get the photos printed? Or should I do everything tomorrow? What should I do? Hais. I don't like it when my mom is at home. Is not that I don't want, but sometimes, I just don't like having family members around because they will keep asking you to do things. And I don't feel like doing anything right now because of her. I want to go swimming with friends, not my mom. Sometimes, I just want to spend my day quietly alone or maybe with friends. I don't know if anyone of you have this feeling but I know I am not a good daughter thinking in this manner. Just frustrating.

Some thing will happen for example like this:
Me: Is daddy coming back home already?
Mom: I am not sure. Why not you call him and ask?
Me: O.... (before I could finish what I wanna say, which is "Orh")
Mom: There's lots of meat in the fridge, you should cook. There's lot of prawn in the freezer.
Me: I don't feel like cooking.
Mom: Cook for daddy la...

Omg! I just wanna ask if daddy is coming back, and she asked me to cook dinner. I really don't feel like talking to her already because once I start a conversation, it will end up an order from her for me to do things.

Sometimes, it is better for me to work and come back home in the evening. At least I am occupied with something and can come back home to talk to them for a while. When you are at home with them most of the time, you will find nothing much to talk about or just don't wanna talk.

I don't know, I just feel it is so wrong today. Very wrong.

25 July 8.29pm

I called dada and talked with him for 15 minutes! That made my day :) I am happy now, no longer frustrated and will be determined to go print those photos. The reward for him for finding my motivation is to make spaghetti for him when he books out this weekend. But first, I have to buy ingredient back myself to try making it >< !

I ended my work at Subway and packed footlong BMT for dada to try :) I had one extra six inch from my colleague and I made ham with a little bit of teriyaki chicken left (cause it does not meet the standard weight of each serving, so we can have it as employee meal sometimes =X).

24 July 4.45pm

I was on my way out to dada's house to delivery the Subway sandwich :) Dada and I ate 3/4 foot long each! I managed to eat that much! OMG! That's my lunch cum dinner already. I also helped dada to fold his No. 4 sleeve. I learnt how to fold :) Dada also took the photo card that I made for him to camp. Felt so happy because they needed to bring photos of their love ones and I am his love one <3

24 July 5.45pm

We went off to the bus stop to take bus to CCK MRT so he can meet his friends there. But its a habit for us to jaywalk across to the bus stop but today, he can't. He was wearing his uniform and had to use the traffic light. So we walked upwards to the next bus stop but we missed 2 buses straight. End up we walked to CCK bus interchange to look for his aunt and then back to MRT station to meet up with his mates. Both of us felt super weird because it's the first time we didn't hold hand to walk for such a long distance.And I sent him off like this, without a hug, without a kiss...I know he can't LOL. That's the law! I have to obey with him too.

Hope to hear his call soon at night before he goes off to bed. Hopes next weekend will have a happy ending like this one.

24 July 9pm

I am eating, supper I guessed. 2 small size container of KFC Mashed Potato Leftover! I whipped the sauce together with the potato and put in the microwave to make it hot! It turned out to be baby's food :) Me like :)

24 July 10pm

Dada was free and I could call him. But I sensed that the photo card I gave him can't be compared to what his mates' gf did for them. I am disappointed in myself and I am going to make a new one! I am motivated to prepare more photos for him! These week will be a week for me to prepare the new photos he is going to bring in this weekend when he book in! There's also another mission given by him! To cook tomato based spaghetti with mushroom and prawns! I shall spend my week fruitfully to see what I my creativity can come out with.

My words for you today:

I know I kinda disappointed you with what I did, cause I know it isn't enough. I can do better than what I have already done! I am sorry that I can't meet the standard of what others did for their bf, but I did made every single thing with all my heart. Especially the pouch! Even though it is a bit old and dirty, I still spent hours making that for you, get pinched by the needles more than my fingers could count and had been thinking of you when I am making it. I will do my very best in giving you what you need and want. Just hope that you won't be that disappointed again. I am truly sorry.

23 July 9.00am

Went to give my one and only tuition of the day. I pushed the rest to other days just to spend my one whole day with dada!

23 July 11.00am

I ended the tuition and took LRT to find dada! I made him go to Keat Hong Station to fetch me because I want to see him earlier :)
In the afternoon, he managed to eat home cooked food by his parents! And he made me eat more than I ate for the past afternoons.
Spent the whole day chatting, knowing more about his camp and let him have a good rest before his book in tomorrow.
After his nap, he suggested to watch Harry Potter! Like finally we get to watch movie together again. We wanted to go Jurong Point as I have one pair of free GV tickets and he has Billy Bombers ice cream vouchers too. But GV was packed! So we went to the place where he first held my hand, West Mall. We picked the corner 2 seats and got nachos combo to eat.

I realized our first nacho didn't taste very good because the crackers were not crispy. We don't dare to order nachos combo again. But when we had the courage to order nacho from cathay to try, we found it very nice. Maybe because both of us like to eat cheese already. Ever since then, we have been ordering that for all the movies that we went to if we feel like snacking. We hardly touched popcorn anymore. Did you notice that dada?

To dada:

I really enjoy myself for the whole day. I wish every week could be like this, but I know I am the one who can commit to that. I have to give tuitions. Dada just bear with it till O level is over. After which I would be more free and might take on more tuition on the weekdays instead of weekend.
Tomorrow will be the day you have to book in, I will bring you BMT sandwich, let you eat the sandwich I made before you go in to have your army food. And will be waiting for your next book out :)

Yawn! Woke up early in the morning again. It's a good thing I guess. Having my bread and plain water now. Suffer will bring beauty :)

22 July 7.00pm

Dada finally booked out! HE LOOKED DAMN TANNED! & LOOKED DAMN CUTE with his BOTAK! I fell deeply in love with his new look! What I always wanted came true :) Dark, tall, handsome, lovely BF!

21 July 8.00am

I was woke up by a call in from BPP Subway. How to switch on the computer? Where is the switch? OMG! But it's a good thing I am going to wake up early today to go for facial. Today was the earliest that I woke up of this week. Able to eat breakfast from downstair coffee shop! Get to text yan too. Guess she didn't have much sleep. A talk till 5 am in the morning. Been through that and hopes she enjoys the rest of the camp with gentlemen in her group!

21 July 1.00pm

Finished my facial and signed a $600 package and I am freaking broke now. No more shopping, No more good food, Everyday eat bread with water, just because of wanting to be more beautiful, with a better face condition. Is it worth? I don't have the answer to my own question yet.

From tml onwards, Bread and Nutella/ Peanut Butter with Milo/ Packet Green Tea/ Plain water. Left a bit savings for dada's book out dinner.

21 July 3.45pm

I went to granny's place today and realise that my aunt bought yam pie from Old Chang Kee for my granny too. There are many yam pies LOL so I helped myself to one! Haha! Finally ate granny's cooked food for dinner after such a long time. So tasty :) Simply Delicious! Oishi! 好吃!

21 July 7.35pm

I just reached home not long ago, cos daddy came to fetch me and drove me home with super speed because he has a part time job to do now at home! Dry swimming :) Hope he is lucky today. On the way home in the car, he asked to buy $1 toto for tomorrow's big draw :) I shall buy one for myself and one for dada! Total $2 :)

Shall wait for dada's sms soon!

21 July 10.27pm

I didn't receive any sms from dada today. It's so late already. Maybe today he has some night activities?

21 July 10.56pm

Dada called and talked for about 2 minutes, den switched off his phone cos it's light out time. Lucky he called :) Feel better now.

20 July 2pm

I went to Sim Lim Square to get a wireless adapter for my Mac Desktop at home for my mom. Got it at $39. Not sure if it is cheap though. After which, I went shopping around Fu Lu Shou area to get a mobile phone case for my dad's Galaxy Ace. Then I went off to buy rice for my mom. There's a vegeterian stall at the market place that sells any 3 dishes for only $2.30. It is cheap and the food taste superb! Should go try if you have the time :) While I was on my way to the bus stop, I was being stopped by a beautician. She said I have a lot of "oil bubble" on my face and could help me remove at a low cost. She pulled me to her booth and set down there, trying different ways to convince me to take up their promotion. Well, I was tempted and it cost $39 for a one time facial. So I went to purchase this offer and will head down tomorrow in the late morning to have my facial done. If it is good, I will recommend to everyone :)

I decided to go to BPP for a while, to pay telephone bills and buy my cosmetic wipes & solution. Decided to visit Subway for a while to chat with them and get the new flavor cookies to munch on :) But it is after 5pm :( The promotion for buy one get one free cookie is over T.T Gotta try tomorrow or what! HAHA! But it is good cause I managed to get a footlong bread from my colleague for free :) HeeHee. Shall repay them by buying good food for them tomorrow after my facial.

20 July 7.20pm

It's dada's free time again :) He just had his dinner not long ago and today I managed to talk to him for 50 mins. Close to 1 hour leh! So happy. He said many things about his camp and his sunburnt. Poor dada! He has to eat chicken everyday and is sick of it already. LOL He also grumble about the camp, army life. He wished he could book out this week and book in next year. What a joke! But good to know that he has good pals :) Hope to see him soon!

19 July 12.30pm

I woke up unwillingly because I've got nothing much to do if I wake up. But my hungry stomach just wont give in. I am going to grow fatter again. And my intestine, could you please digest faster and make it more comfortable for me? No matter how much fiber I ate, you just won't smoothen the process for me right? Now I gotta made my lunch before I go out to lot 1 to buy stuff and back to BPP then go for tuition and maybe swimming with my parents in the evening.

BORED!! School starts faster please.

WATCH THIS DRAMA!

19 July 8.17pm

I just came home from the swimming complex! YAY! Finally swam :)

I managed to call dada when he was about to ask me to call him. So coincidental! Xin lin xiang tong ah :) But he go burnt again. I bet it is super painful. Stubborn him, asked him to apply the aloe vera cream, he chose not to.

Yawn! Just woke up not long ago. Having my maggie lunch now while enjoying "Scooby Doo: Attack of the Phantosaur (2011)" before I decided to be real determined to do all the house work. I need to

• Wash the clothes [Done at 1.05pm]
• Hang the clothes [Done at 3.00pm]
• Fold the clothes [Done at 3.15pm]
• Clear all the rubbish bin [Done at 4.10pm]
• Iron the clothes [Done at 4.30pm]
• Sweep the floor [ [Done at 5.30pm]
• Mop the floor [Done at 5.45pm]
• Go lot 1 to check out hair products for colleague as promised [Didn't go, postpone to tomorrow]

18 July 10.12pm

I just ended call with dada. Spent 22 minutes and 2 seconds talking to him. He had sunburned his back. Poor thing, can't even apply the lotion on his own. How I wish I could be there to apply it for him. He also drank a lot of water from the swimming pool while learning to float and most probably losing his voice soon cause he sacrificed to be the timer for days. My heart hurts hearing things like that. I just hope when he books out this coming weekend, he will be okay.

18 July 10.48pm

I just finished create a picture for him to bring back to camp when he is booking in next week/ this weekend (:

17 July 8am

Woke up in the morning to go work @ Subway from 8am - 4pm.

17 July 2pm

It's nice to know that dada was relaxing at camp today. I received a text from him saying that he had some free time then and could enjoy movie session with his mates. Since I was having lunch break then, I decided to call him to chat for a short while. But I heard bad news from him when I called.

Firstly: His phone left 3 bars of battery. Not sure if it will last till end of next week.

Secondly: He heard from someone that the broke up rate of relationship in NDU is very high. Many girlfriends of NDU enlistees complained that their boyfriends don't have time to accompany them and end up going separate ways. But I told dada: "I don't think it is you who don't have the time for me. I think I will be the one who is damn busy and don't have the time for you. LOL!"
But still kinda scared. Maybe I don't have much confidence in myself when it comes to relationship even though he reassured me with his sincere promises.

17 July 6pm

Sent my brother to pasir ris bus interchange and saw many army boys. Images of dada's bald head appear in my mind and I can't stop laughing. LOL =X

17 July 7pm

Back to BPP to have dinner with my parents and my dad got a new phone! The brother of my phone: Galaxy Ace. Not bad, I guess nowadays, most parents are very into smart phones as well. Their main purposes: calling, sms-ing & GAMING! Haha!

Dada texted me again while I was dinning at BPP. He said he was having Macdonald! Enjoy his life in the camp to the max. man. Had a short phone conversation with him when I got home. Glad to know he is doing well with his bulk mates and buddy. All eat together, play together (especially playing pranks on one another while one is on the phone with their gf) & bathe together. Haha!

17 July 9.30pm

Dada went to bed already...And I am still awake blogging...But I do feel much better after seeing the text he sent to me before he went to bed. It is very sweet and I do hope it will happen soon. Most likely the day will come after a few more years, if the world is not ending next year...ALIENS!

Woke up this morning with a headache and end up having to cancel my morning tuition and went back to rest more. Woke up around 11 plus to prepare for my next tuition. After which, I went to BPP Subway! Celebration for Hera's 28th Birthday!

From left to right: Xiao Yun, Hera, Me

Hera's birthday ice cream cake from Swensen! Very nice! With blueberry & Strawberry flavour.

Subway's employees' lunch! Pizza from Pizza Hut! Thanks to Aunty Esther for all the food. She paid for most of them.

Here's a video:

To my dearest dada:

Today I am very sorry for not being able to accompany to talk on the phone around 8+ at night because I was having tuition still. But thanks for being patience with me and waited for my tuition to end. It feels great chatting with you every night to know what is going on in camp everyday. Hope time will pass real fast so that you can book out soon to see me :)

Always loving you, your baby <3

Went to subway in the morning to have my breakfast :) Thanks Aunty Esther for the Veggie Patty Sub & orange juice. After which I took bus to Jurong Point to meet up with Zhihui, Zhining & Zhiyan. 3 Zhis! Supposed to go Jurong East Swimming Complex to have a dip in the water, but the weather wasn't at our side. It is a rainy day today so we decided to go Party World at Orchard instead :) Love singing tgt as a group. As for dinner, I dined with Hui & Yan later at Bugis cause Ning when dating.

P.S. So sorry to let you guys eat Pastamania again because I am a vegeterian on 1st & 15th of lunar calender.

After which, we went shopping at Bugis Street and bought lots of stuff. All 3 of us gotten cheap deals :) Especially me! Spent a lot today on clothes and weighing machine! Finally gotten a digital one. And I am still as heavy as before. Didn't slim down...That's the saddest thing that happened today.

And dada, I got you a cap!

That's for you to wear when you book out. Haha, I know I am bit thick skin saying this, but see I am such a good and thoughtful girlfriend of yours right?

And finally, I gotta hang of blogging again. After 4 days of warming up, guess I could blog more everyday right? Haha!

14 July 5.00pm

I went to dye my hair brown even when you told me not to. Well, I cant resist temptation so I went forward to have my hair coloured once again. I learnt a lesson today -- not to have my hair dyed black in the future. It cost me hell lots this round.

14 July 10.30pm

You finally called me around 9.57pm today. I was thinking if you were angry with me because of what I did. I tried calling you, but you never picked up. I also messaged you multiple times but did not get a reply from you till you called. I was so scared till I sensed your happiness when you called. It's a relief.

P.S. Please do not play prank on your bunk mates because you don't want them to play that on you too. Their gfs missed them as much as I miss you.

And just a reminder, I would be fetching you when you book out even i never get picked for NTU NBS camp.

*Hopefully I will receive a call from them tomorrow. I want to go socialize and get to know more friends before school starts.*

11 July

Daniel's first day in camp. I was worried because he lost his appetite early in the morning. I began to feel very uneasy, and for the very first time, I was at loss of what to do. It would be a tough time for me to get used to this kind of life. Tears started to flow on the first night while having a conversation with him on the phone.

12 July

I did not feel any better. In fact I felt worst as I had ended my part time job. Now that I have nothing to keep myself occupied, I am certain that I might be more emotional than usual as I tend to over think. Even though we will chat for about 10 minutes every night before your lights out, I still feel that something is missing in my life. What should i do?