Monday, August 22, 2011
21 Aug 6+pm
I don't know what I did to make dada so angry and pissed off at me. Fortunately we manage to keep cool and didn't quarrel. But i hate to feel this way just before he booked in.
22 Aug 10+am
I woke up cooked myself a big pot of maggie with fresh veggie and egg. Relaxed a bit before going school for lecture.
22 Aug 4pm
Lecture ended and hui and I supposed to go swim, but didn't go in the end because of the unpredictable weather and partly because of the WSC interview.
22 Aug 6+pm
I went for the WSC Friends of Children interview. I think I did quite okay. Hopefully I could get in because I want to at least have a weekly commitment to serve the community.
22 Aug 7+pm
Had dinner with hui and ning at JP.
22 Aug 8+pm
While waiting for 180, I saw Charmaine in the queue and Wen Quan on the bus. Had a fruitful conversation with the both of time. But wasn't happy.
I HAVE RASHES!!!
IT IS SUPER DUPER ITCHY!!!
To dada:
I think both of us are so "xi guan" having one another. Now that I couldn't have time to make call, you will be upset and can't sleep well. Vice Versa. Now that if you didn't text me, I will be worried and couldn't sleep well. I don't know what will become of us in the future because sooner or later I would have lesser time at night to have a nice conversation before your night out.
From next week or Sept onwards:
Monday - Free
Tuesday and Wednesday - Work @ Subway
Thursday - Might have WSC FOC commitment till 8 or 9 at night.
Friday - Your book out day
Now that you might get liberty on weekdays, I don't even know if I could have the time to spend with you. I will try to meet u, but my schedule for subway is made one week before. I can't reject or make changes last minute. If I am confirmed a member of WSC FOC, I have to commit myself every Thursday night. I must be a responsible person. I know it is hard on you to accept the fact that I would be very busy when I started school. But it is hard for me to not work, because I need money for my monthly liabilities. It is hard for me to accept the fact that I won't be able to see you because you are serving army now. I guess we have to slowly face the reality.
But I promise, nth will change or affect our relationship. I am in a confuse emotional state right now. I just don't know how to explain to you. I don't know how to maintain a balance between my social life, school activities & work right now. Will it be better after O levels? Since I could spend my whole Saturday with you. Will that compromise all the weekday time that I could spend with you? I really don't know. Can you give me an answer soon?
Posted by Kristen at 11:20:00 PM
